Saturday, August 15, 2009

Let me put you in my shoes for a minute,
Let you see how you make me feel,
What it would be like if you went through what I did,
What I am still trying to get over,
First you talk to me,
You know what just to say to make me swoon,
I am sure you have used those lines before,
But for some reason I still believe every word,
We get to know each other,
I know your quirks and you know mine,
Each day look forward to the time we get to talk,
Thinking what we could be,
Wondering what could happen,
I see you for the first time in a year,
Amazed at how much I forgot about you,
What you looked like,
My heart skips a beat,
Immediately try and rememorize your face,
The way you look at me,
Knowing that I will miss everything,
How your eyes cut all the way to my core,
I dreamt about the hope of those nights,
Knowing they were numbered and sparse,
Appreciating every moment,
Expecting when I would see you again,
The night we opened up to each other,
When you spoke those simple words,
The three that changed my world,
You said you have been waiting for when it felt right,
You picked the perfect one,
I still smile at that moment,
There is a million things you could have said,
But you chose the ones that are so easy to pronounce,
But so hard to actually say,
I still wonder if you really meant them,
Or were just saying it cause it would have been perfect,
That “I love you” changed my summer,
But they meant nothing to you,
That night of childish games,
Outside in the rain,
It was picture perfect,
Straight out of a movie,
All of what I would have ever dreamed,
And then some,
I will always remember my first kiss,
But maybe it should have been with someone else,
I never doubted that you were a great guy,
It did not cross my mind that you would do this,
Should have listened to the voices around me about you,
The he is just a player messing with your heart,
The minute your gone he will move on,
Thought they were just trying to protect me,
Especially from someone I thought I didn’t need protection from,
But I was wrong,
You did exactly what they said you would,
I thought I knew you better,
But again I was wrong,
What happened to our love,
Where did you go, love?
How would you feel ?
If the girl you were in love with,
The girl you had your first kiss with,
The girl who was always there,
Got up and walked away,
Without even a goodbye,
How would you take that?
It has been weeks since you have talked to me,
I don’t know what I did wrong,
If anything I would like to know,
Maybe it wasn’t even me,
You probably found someone or something better,
And didn’t bother with some girl you spent your summer nights with,
Who isn’t worth wasting your time with,
Cause there was never a real chance,
We come from different places,
And I live hundreds and hundred of miles away,
Never a chance,
Someday you may ask what happened,
You should ask yourself,
I wanted you and nothing else,
And you wanted anything else but me,
You know what I wish you well,
It still hurts,
But the pain will fade eventually,
Now im mostly mad,
And will be for awhile,
I wonder what will happen next summer,
When I see you again,
I hope you regret everything you did to me,
And do not expect me to come running back to you,
I am through with you,
I pray that you are jealous,
That you know you screwed up,
Maybe then you will apologize,
That when you see me you wish you did things differently,
All I will do is laugh,
And tell you now you know how I feel now,
So how does it feel?
You had a girl that could have been all yours,
But you ignored me,
Left without any answers,
Thats okay I don’t need you,
I have learned that,
I am much better off without you,
But you aren’t better off without me,
Someday you will look back on this summer,
I know you will,
And think of me,
Like I have been thinking about you,
I hope you enjoy it too,
To feel what it is like to be used,
I hope you find a girl who plays your game better then you do,
What goes around comes around,
So have a nice life…

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Dont Forget

You said you wouldn’t hurt me,
Not got over me fast
why do i keep feeding myself lies,
lies that i could change you,
but your just a boy I thought I knew,
a boy I thought I knew wouldn’t do this to me
thought I could make you the guy i want you to be
,that you may actually change your ways,
stick to one girl for longer than it takes you to get them,
I thought i would never be one of those girls,
chasing after the bad boy,
knowing the end always is heartbreak,
what was I thinking?
that you actually care about me?
that I matter to you?
and am not just some other girl
but now I see the real you,
you break hearts for fun,
use me and then throw me away,
walk away from "us",
without even a notice,
all I need is an apology...is that too much?really is it?
I think I deserve at least that much.
you never loved me,
you just used those three words to draw me closer,
why did you say it if you didnt even mean it?
I dont think you know what love is,
if you truly loved me you wouldnt not be here now,
I hope one day you find out what love is,
not just lust,
but true love,
maybe that will change you,
hopefully you wont be scared of what love could do to you,
I thought I could be that girl,
I guess not.now that you are gone,
all I see you is as a another mistake,
that I will have to live my life with,
I know you are a good person,
but why must you do this to me,
its not the same without you,
I actually miss you,
when I know I shouldnt,
cause I know you dont miss me,
your probably glad I'm out of your life so you can move on to the next girl,
I will always remember you though,
especially those summer nights we spent together,
how my heart fluttered everytime I was with you,
how all my thoughts revolved around you,
how everytime you talked to me,
I would get lost in your eyes and not remeber what you said,
I wish I could remember these as good times,
and not ones that I regret,
It was great at the time,
but now I wonder...did you really feel the same way?
I will make myself think that you did,
that in those starry light nights we could maybe fall in love,
that we could be there for each other,
keep each other close,
I thought we could be great friends,
help each other through tough timesbuild a lasting friendship,
but that wasnt important to you,
which I am sure I will get over it,
it may take time,
but I will...
you just forgot that I was even alive,
I hope you never regret what we had that one summer,
dont forget...

YOUR STILL JUST A JERK!!!